help?

i could use some cheering up & comfort. 心 疼 :/ 

whatever. the fuck with it.

whatever. the fuck with it. that's all i have to say.

hope for the best

1 Corinthians 13:1-8a & 13
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." 

Just have to be stronger & have more faith. With compassion, patience, & hope in due time everything will be better. Stand up tall. Head up high. Be happy. Smile. Have confidence that everything will be fine. Even if all appears to fail trust in your heart that love will persevere in everything you do. Learn. Grow. Smile. All you can do at this point to guide is to model, and just hope & pray that in time one will value and reciprocate the same affection. Change takes time. Alvin, if you can be patient with children & babies you should be able to be patient with anything else in this world. 

A world full of anger, frustration, anxiety, grief, depression, pain ... can NEVER foster happiness in life or resolve anything. All it is going to do is beat you when you are already down. Pull yourself up. Smile & just make the best of everything. Sound simple enough right? Easy said than done, but you're going to have to do this for yourself, Alvin. You can no longer let any of these things deprive, control, and restrict you from fostering your own happiness towards life. Understand that we cannot always get what we want and that WE ALL have to work for our happy endings. This is life. Deal with it. Suck it up. Face the realities that fantasies no longer exist in life without true effort, patience, love, and compassion. 

This is truly a struggling journey in my life. Always fighting for the love i need. What can you do. Life is life. you just have to deal with the things that are given to you. Learn. Grow. There is no easy way out of anything in life if you want the very best. You have to work hard for something you want. No matter how much you wish to not work or put full effort in, obtaining what you truly want is hard work, whether you admit it or not. 

One thing I am willing to work hard for is love & anything that brings me a step closer to love. Love is something i know that is a must and essential in my daily life. Walking on this struggling journey in understanding this abstract and yet so essential need in life, is worth all my heart aches, pain, and suffering. i do believe that is the true meaning of love.   

 

falling :'[

I am falling again :'[. I am so tired of everything. In some ways I feel like I have failed in life. I can't even obtain my own happiness anymore. I feel lost, hurt, sad, & lonely. I don't know what to do about life anymore. I tried remaining positive and optimistic, but I am falling again and allowing life's obstacles to drag me down. I was not like this before. Why have I become this person (always feeling so emotional, down, and negative). Help me :'[. Anybody, please :[. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't help myself anymore. I don't want to be this weak anymore.

A old friend of mine has recently launched and started a project called regretbook. After exploring it, it really allowed me to reflect on how I am feeling about life. Check out my friend's web site (http://www.regretbook.com/)

This is one entry I have posted:

"I regret coming out to my family. Everything has changed. The way they look at me and treat me is not the same anymore. It really does affect my happiness, confidence, and contentment as an individual. When I am at home I feel that my rights, feelings and perspectives are denied, discarded, & unimportant. I may sound like I am stuck in adolescent egocentrism with a "personal fable", but I really am not if you were in my position. It really is depressing to always go home to have a sense of feeling that you are a disappointment to your family. I regret coming out. I try to be strong and cover my sadness with other things in life, but no matter what I can't seem to not let it deprive me from my own happiness. I'm sick of always feeling so down and emotionally unable about every little thing in life. I wish I have someone in my life to truly love me for who I am and share a happy life together. "

canvas

Today's paq of the day:
"Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can."
Danny Kaye

Brand new canvas everyday. Throw on, splash on, paint on the colors of your mood. We choose to make our day vibrant or gloomy. It is all about the attitude. Fix it. Change it. Do something with it to help oneself to live a much more fruitful lifestyle. Design your MASTERPIECE of the day. Start today with a new positive attitude toward life. Take a look at your masterpieces and ask yourself, "What do these paintings tell me? Am I happy? Am I depress/sad/mopey?"

I promised myself that I will no longer be pessimistic about every little thing anymore. Looking towards the optimistic things in life is much more realxing and happier. I can feel a TREMENDOUS difference in my energy level and how I feel overall. This is all very new to me. Of course, I would not just transform overnight. This will take me some time to change and adapt. Life has not really been all that easy. We all have our stories to tell. This is my rough survival journey. Maybe I am not alone. Maybe I don't have to go through this transition alone? I'm tired of allowing life to get the best of me when I am the one living the life. I'm just going to have to learn how to take life as it is and learn how to deal with it when it comes my way. Nothing is set in stones. Whatever happens, happens for a reason, right?

I finally LEARNED that all I can do is just be my happy self and HOPE for the best in everything, but at the same time be strong and independent. I am just going to have to refrain from my negative thoughts and EMOTIONS from hindering me from being happy. I am much happier. This positive attitude mentality is not all that bad.

Today is such a lovely day. The sun is out shinning bright, and the sky is clear and blueee. Learning to not care so much about the littlest things in life is such a wonderful and stress-free feeling! Yay! :]

I think I really can pull myself out of this darken hole that I have fallen and continued to fall in the past years. I promise I will be happy everyday :]. I can do this. Although, a little help of course would not hurt ;]

1st paq of the day

I know this is a rhetorical statement to imply; however, I am going to state the obvious anyways because it is a good reminder to me to live a happy and healthy lifestyle. Life is much more meaningful when we are happy.

 Life is too short to mope, and so simple to depict what we lack in life without appreciating what is right in front of us. Maybe having a positive attitude toward life may be the natural remedy in curing my daily fatigue and lethargic feelings. I am sick and tired of occasionally being depressed and so helpless with my emotions.

I want to go back to my old self when I once was a happy child who was able to put a smile on everyone’s face. Over these years, I finally see how much I have changed. Unfortunately, the person I have become was dramatically affected with years of accumulated caged emotions of feeling heavily burdened, lonely, empty, and helpless. I have drained myself BATTLING with my pessimistic attitude. This has got to stop.

Today’s positive attitude quote of the day:

“Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same.” -- Francesca Reigler   

Happiness is an attitude that I need to change and improve. I need to get a hold of myself and STOP making myself feel so miserable about every little thing in life and be happy. I will be strong and independent and TRY my best to not allow FAILURES to take control of my life. Make every experience positive. Be optimistic. In every NEGATIVE respect there is a POSITIVE.

 :]

new me

From this day on forward I VOW to do my very best to have an optimistic attitude toward life. By doing so I will TRY my very BEST to pick a favorite "positive attitude quote" of the day as a reminder to help me to be strong and remain POSITIVE. I realized I have such a negative and pessimistic view of the world, despite all the daily melancholy events occurring around the world. I am going to TOTALLY change of be a WHOLE NEW person. Easy said than done right? Of course, it will take me time to alternate and accommodate to a positive mind-set.

 I, Alvin Chung Wing Moy, vow to live my life to its fullest and try my very best to be happy at all cost; moreover, learn to appreciate the littlest things in life and refrain from taking advantage of the things that have been given to me in life. 

New beginning. New life. New me. 

新的變動

到其最豐盛的一個過生活。是強的和在所有那些中盡全力你只要你盡自己的職責那是計算和要緊的。我將嘗試我的全部不再關心其他的輸入，設定每個人的如此高的期望。如果他們真正地確實然後在意在時間他們將盡全力，但是對現在都我可以做剛剛是自己和不允許其他的從是自己阻礙我。過幸福的生活。生活太短暫，不能總是在想要和預料我們沒可以有的。帶走生命實際上和學習包含它。是熱烈的和仍然是對生活的一種積極態度。下巴上升！在生活中看著正量。微笑！

到上等的性能鼓勵人的最佳方法乘一切使他們相信你做和按你全心全意地支持的你的日常的態度他們。 Harold S. Geneen

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Is it not human instinct to show your affection and care to another individual you care for? Is it not natural to want to care or think about that person? If not, please explain to me why and why not. I really cannot comprehend that idea that it is not true. Internal affection peeks through one's actions in any form or way.

*sigh* no more thinking
Just let it be and let it go
Try not to care so much anymore and see how things go

i don't have anymore to say . . . :[

hobby

Life is full of ups and downs, unexpected twist and turns, and surprises. Overcoming a pessimistic attitude toward life's adversities can be a life-long obstacle, but once we have successfully achieved that optimistic mind-set, I can only imagine how self rewarding it can be. I am simultaneously learning to live life to its fullest on a day-to-day basis, as well as appreciating what is given to me in life. I realized as I get older, life feels like it is rewinding back in time to the point when I was once a baby learning to take things (life) one step at a time. I enjoy taking the time to reflect and analyze my life. Although, I do tend to over analyze life to the point that it becomes unhealthy, which affects my emotions by making me feel overwhelmed and depressed. I guess you can say this is a WEIRD. STRANGE. ABNORMAL. hobby of mine, THINKING. I realized that there are very few people in my life that TRULY and SINCERELY give me the chance to EXPRESS my thoughts and take the time to really LISTEN; moreover, give me their feedback on what I am PONDERING about in life. Thank you to all of those who sincerely RESPECT and VALUE my insights and perspective.

Sometimes allowing things to be and just learning to live a CAREFREE and STRESS FREE mindset can make a difference in one's daily mood, which in my case can be effective in reducing STRESS. SADNESS. DEPRESSION. ANXIETY... The question is HOW? How do I learn to master this skill in living a carefree and stress free lifestyle when there is so much grief and melancholy that is around this world? What can I do? Help me please. Any suggestions? Comments? Feedback?

I would add more to this post, unfortunately I am dead TIRED & my eyes are beginning to shut on me =_____=;

what can you say? what can you do?

What can you say? What can you do? We NEVER ALWAYS get what we WANT. That is just life. Even if you tried your hardest to achieve to work things out your results may not EQUATE to the amount of EFFORT or DEDICATION you have invested in making it successful. What can you say? What can you do? You have already done all that you can do. What now? Give up? Surrender? Let it be? Let it go? What should I do? Life is too short to relive every lost opportunity. I guess one of my OPTIONS is to LEARN how to deal with life as it is. I know this is a very challenging task to me because it is MY human nature to try to avoid ALL DISASTERS, but we all know that is IMPOSSIBLE. I just have to accept the fact that I cannot always TRY to INTERVENE the nature of TIME, PURPOSE, REASON, AMBIGUITIES, . . . Life is life. What can you say? What can you do?

This is one TOUGH journey. LEARNING to DEAL with life as it is. Straying away from the FANTASY world and snapping back in to REALITY can be frightening. Many times I feel LOST, INSECURE, ALONE, and even sometimes TOO ANALYTICAL to the point that it drives me INSANE. Yes, THINKING is HEALTHY, but OVER ANALYZING, REFLECTING, THINKING . . . can be DANGEROUS. RISKY. OVERWHELMING. In a way, I guess, me always OVER THINKING things allow me to STEP-BACK and try to see the OVERALL PICTURE in LIFE and just try to UNDERSTAND every SHAPE, COLOR, SIZE, LIGHTENING, SHADOW, CONTEXT, TEXTURE . . . of LIFE and try to make the BEST out of it, even if it is DEPRESSING to see the things I have never seen before.

This is my time. My OPPORTUNITY to LOOK at LIFE in a POSITIVE LIGHT of DIRECTION, while I am still young. I am afraid one day my THINKING will CONSUME me and take me away from the real person I am inside. Deep down inside there is a KID, me, who is not ready to ACCEPT the terms of REALITY. I want to keep that INNOCENT and PURE PERSPECTIVE as a CHILD. I don't want to be CORRUPTED by SOCIETY'S STANDARDS & LIFE EXPECTATIONS. I want to be HAPPY. A happy child who can see every thing in life with a LIGHT of HOPE and JOY as I grow OLDER & MATURE. Yes, I know we all have to GROW UP and be an ADULT in some time and point in life, but I NEVER want to LOSE that INNOCENT, PURE, and JOYFUL mind as a child.

I am not saying that I am not MATURE. May be this is my opinion, but I think that I am too MATURE for my age in some things in life. *sigh* What can I say? What can I do? Life is life. Just have to deal with it :[

even greater passion

I had such a wonderful weekend! I am even more fire up about Jumpstart! I made new friends and bonded with other team leaders and other Jumpstart members from our western region :D. It was such a wonderful experience :]. What a great way to start the year and building an even greater passion for Jumpstart! Woohooo! Yay! Wonderful wonderful experience! Everything in the beginning was so sudden and overwhelming, but after attending this SLI training leadership conference I feel a little bit more confident and a little bit more prepare for Jumpstart even if I am entirely new to Jumpstart's program.

From the day I applied for Jumpstart I always had the passion in me. This 3 day conference training really encouraged me to work harder and set a good example to my corp. members. Not only did i learn how to become a better and professional leader, but I also acquired other valuable skills, such as a manager, coach, & observer ( '4 hats that we, Team Leaders, have to be able to interchangably & simultaneously wear at all times' - - 1st hat is a given: leader, so i didn't mention or include it in the list).

There was one particular trainer/mentore/role model that really inspired me to become the best that I can be as a Jumpstart Team Leader, and that inspirational individual's name is called Lygia! She is such an awesome speaker! Truly inspirational and entertaining just listening to her. I love Lygia's fun and engaging spirit that just somehow draws everyone's attention. Amazing! You're just going to have to hear and see her just to believe it. I want to have as much enthusiastic spirit and confidence as much as her one day :].

I know this semester is going to be very challenging juggling with 18 units of classes ontop of my practicum/internship - Jumpstart program and my evening night tutoring job, which is unfortunately not very stable :/. I guess I can't complain because in its way I get to use that time wisely to catch up and put that extra time I have in my studies. I have to be honest, I am scare about this semester. This is my very FIRST semester TRYING to do all this accomplishments all at ONCE O_O; can you SAY: OVERLOAD -_____-; I PRAY God that I will be able to MANAGE and survive all that I am doing this semester =x. Please help me God! MERCY please!

Oh my goodness! I forgot to mention that after our long day of training on Saturday. We all got to go to Disneyland :] ! YAY! it was so much fun! It was very exciting chatting with the rest of my peers about funny stories and personal stories. It really was a wonderful opportunity for all of us to bond and get to know each other in a free and fun evening. I was shocked how fast the lines went on a Saturday night. Honestly I would not mind standing and waiting in line because it was already fun chit-chatting and playing games with our peers x]. fun! fun! fun! We were inside the park from 7pm-disneyland closed. For once disney was empty xD. It was very nice having the feeling that the entire disneyland park was all to ourselves. Mmmm I was craving for ice cream, unfortunately before leaving disneyland we didn't get the chance to get some ice cream. Mmm speaking of ice cream, I have a craving for a vanilla ice cream cone from MickeyDee's xP. They have ONE of the BEST vanilla ice cream cones EVER! i love it!

Okayy, anywho, I better stop typing and rambling on and go finish my homework now -_____-;

Dear God

Here's an old prayer I found in my cubby that I wrote to God when I needed Him:

Dear God,

You are my focus

The attention & center of my heart
The one and only true comfort
The burning passion of my soul
The King and Loving Savior

The Hope of all beginning & end
The joy and light of my world
The one and only focus of my attention
You stray me away from evil

Your guiding path of footsteps
The honor to forgive, wash away our sins
And sacrifice your only begotten son
The passion and complete filling of my empty heart

I pray to you, O'Lord, to watch over me, my family and friends
And everyone who needs love in this darken world
Shine and be the open door to a new life
The one and only savior of our lost souls
Your blessings and love is the best gift of all

Paint your name and glory above us all
For we are your creation and sheep that are made to worship thee
Save us from our shameless sins & carry us to walk your ways

Give us strength, joy, and comfort for you are our only focus
Magnify your glorious name and may it be shown in our hearts
For you are the way and the truth and the light; our guide and maker
For I am your loving child and servant

I pray God that I will be with you through my life and after life
In your Holy Kingdom ready to serve my Heavenly Father,
Our Holy Holy Holy Almighty King
The ever shinning star

I will commit my life, heart, soul, and mind to you
Heavenly Father I pray that you may grant me
Strength, courage, wisdom, love and understanding to overcome all sins
With your everlasting love please guide me

Keep me pure in all ways
Safe and sound, hand-to-hand, hear-to-heart
Be my sword and shield
You are my armor & focus of my soul

Amen.

out of our hands

Sometimes things in life happen for a reason and it is just out of our hands to take control. You see, it is human nature to take things into our own hands, especially for the people or things we CARE most about and TRY to make the best out of it. For most it is a challenge to learn how to LET THINGS BE and ACCEPT the way things are. It is important for us to UNDERSTAND that it is out of our reach, despite all our EFFORTS that FAILED and has been done. Yes, it is difficult to an EXTREME without trying to CONTROL or MANIPULATE things into our own hands when knowing that things are not going well or are slipping away from us. We just have to realize in life that we cannot control everything. Yes, it is painful to have to learn how to HOLD it in and just HOPE for the best in your heart. We can only do so much before the real truth is revealed, and behind all the painful PATIENCE and HOLDING IN that we have learned will hopefully be well RESPECTED, taken into CONSIDERATION, TAKEN TO ACTION, & make the CHANGES to SHOW that one UNDERSTANDS the other person's FEELINGS. Be strong. We can do it. Have hope in your heart. Just be who you are and be strong to not allow yourself to be influenced by the negative occurrences or changes that you face.

internal project

Making changes in life is never easy. Ultimately we make the best of our choices and decisions, whether it be positive and or negative changes in life. Of course, there are time when things get out of control & nearly impossible of our reach to FIX/ACCOMMODATE/CHANGE/UNDERSTAND ..., all we can do is just taking life as it is and learn to make the best of it. Breaking out of your comfort zone and learning how to adapt and make changes for the greater good of things can be a tremendous challenge. If one thinks it is for the best of things do not HESITATE or PROCRASTINATE to overcome this hindrance to make things successful and work. One may never know how things may turn out if one refuses to TRY & take CHANCES in this LEARNING PROCESS.

I have many things to learn in life. Things I need to learn/improve in my life are: being a STRONGER individual, being more INDEPENDENT, learn to TRUST [ WISELY ], be more CONFIDENT, & have no FEAR to make CHANGES in life and to break out of my comfort zone. These are just some things in life, non in particular order, I am setting as a goal to LEARN to APPRECIATE and make the best of my life. Once again, another new beginning and journey I am embarking to accomplish.

Yes, I know these are some things that are simple for some individuals to already have and accomplish in life, in order to survive in the real world, but I humbly come forward and admit that I am not ready yet. In my mind, yes I know I do not have these basic survival skills in life yet, but I am DETERMINE to succeed in this. This is something that I am working on. An INTERNAL project that may take me a life time, but as long as I don't GIVE UP & WORK HARD to GROW and LEARN from this experience, I know ONE DAY I will succeed.

Please guide me and help me along our way. I too need your guidance and aide :]. We both can do this together <3.

We can do this! :] *hand-in-hand* *side-by-side*

wearing multiple shoes

UNDERSTANDING is another very important human trait to acquire and develop in life. Learning to become a(n) UNDERSTANDING individual branches and teaches us many other life long lessons that we can all learn and prosper from, such as HUMBLENESS, RESPECT, GIVING CHANCES, FORGIVENESS, VALUE, and many more. Of course, there are BOUNDARIES that should not be crossed, which is when UNDERSTANDING is being taken advantage of and gone to a whole other level. Being an understanding and RESPECTFUL individual towards one another's wants and needs is one of the many ways of a successful relationship. It helps strengthen one another's TRUST and level of MATURITY in working out a COMMITTED relationship. Don't forget that COMMUNICATION is VERY IMPORTANT & the KEY to RESOLVING in a EXPRESSIVE manner. In a relationship, bear in mind, it takes TWO loving individuals to build and work together to strengthen everything, which leads into other qualities in a relationship like TRUST, SECURITY, HAPPINESS, INDIVIDUALITY, RESPECT, CONCERN, HONESTY, ... and ultimately the grandest of all LOVE. I save LOVE for another post, but I could not have done justice with this post without touching base on LOVE on the topic of learning and becoming a(n) UNDERSTANDING individual.

Being a(n) UNDERSTANDING individual to me is something that is very POWERFUL and extremely VALUABLE, & that it is something that must NEVER be taken for granted like LOVE. UNDERSTANDING can fall in many levels. It is something that is on going. I can do this. Just need to be a little stronger. Life is filled with ups & downs. I just got to work at it. Learn from it. Grow from it.

journey to discovering the meaning of life

Who am I to say and judge about the meaning of life? I'm not. I just wanted to share and write out what I perceive about life in general. The purpose of this blog is to document everything I have, had, and am learning in the process of life. This is going to be a challenge because I am not great with words; however, I decided to follow through because I realized creating this blog is a good way for me to write out my thoughts, evaluations, analysis, ... to help express (in a way, despite the fact that I am not a great writer) and release myself from my worries that I constantly am pondering about. Welcome to my journey to discovering the meaning of life. We all have our own perspectives, values, and interpretations. I humbly ask you, please refrain from thinking whatever I say is right or wrong, immature, or possibly even absurd. Life is life right?!

I decided to create this blog to embark on a new beginning and journey to help me record my understandings and learnings of my life and life in general. I have so many questions & goals and dreams to reach for. I feel lost and overwhelmed in life.

I need guidance too and someone to help me in the right direction too.

We help each other & go through this together <3. Side-by-side. Hand-in-Hand.

actions speak louder than words

Words are just not enough. Words can only last for so long. It is only a temporary foundation in making preparations for the real ACTIONS. All that 'just talking' ultimately becomes false hopes, dreams, expectations ..., moreover misleading. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. Take the stand and commit yourself in doing so. Words is just one of the many methods of taking actions. Look at MARRIAGE as an example. Saying, 'I do," is only the beginning of a fruitful relationship sharing happiness, commitments, sacrifices... with one another. Words are passive without backing it up with any actions. Showing someone how you are feeling is much more meaningful than just saying it. Actions help strengthen & reassure what one believes and stand for. It is almost like MASTERING something. Without making the EFFORT or doing anything, one is just making it HARDER to accomplish/succeed. WORK AT IT. WORK IT!

As time passes one begins to develop this mentality that it is something that is not as important as it was once before. Here is when PROCRASTINATION manifests. Everything is pushed off and nothing will be done about it unless pressure/time is enforced. Why wait to PRACTICE & LEARN now before it is TOO LATE. Why wait for it to become a HABIT or allowing it to FADE when something that was once before there. That goes with everything in LIFE.

Don't just say it. Do it. Maybe motivation is the problem? Is it not enough? What more of a motivation does one need if one already has what one wants in order to reach one's goal to success? VALUE what one has [another post/topic yet to come]. Make it WORK. WORK IT!

EFFORT. COMMITMENT. LIFE.

treasure the time you have now

Time is a very valuable thing that everyone either takes for granted, wishes to have more, or wishes to move faster, especially during the school year. For students, summer is one of the most exciting and treasured time to catch up and or excel, relax, be lazy, work, and or just enjoy life overall. Time really goes by fast when you are being productive or just having plain fun! It really kills me when I can't find anything entertaining enough to keep me productive, which makes me EVALUATE my life overall. All that precious time I am wasting has gone down the drain. I should take advantage of the time I have now to better myself before I go back to school in the fall.

I am very thankful to have a summer vacation/break and the opportunity to make the best out of it. Many people do not have the TIME to waste, relax, or enjoy. It makes me think that I should do something more meaningful in life with my summer other than just FUN and ENTERTAINMENT.

I want to search for something to do in the realm of my major/field--child and adolescent development, but I am struggling with finding the results. What are some organizations and programs I can join and participate to make a difference in the world? Preferably early age children and toddlers. I love children! They make me happy! They put a smile on my face. Every smile on a child's face shines through and lifts my spirit, which makes me feel so happy.

Can any body out there help me and provide me some suggestions and or any reliable sources that I may refer to?

one of many life's journeys

Life is a spontaneous journey whether you like it or not. Speaking of life, one thing that is always on my mind is about love and having a family of my own with my significant other one day. Love is one of the many journeys we face, but lost, confused & struggled by many everyday. I learned something new today that I once thought I have already succeeded, but I have yet to learn more, much more. Now that I can apply this learned knowledge:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy; it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres"
1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Now I have a better understanding of love in life. Love is something that is unmeasurable and wanted from many. Love is a beginning of many unforgettable memories, whether they are happy or sad. Love is patient and kind. I tell myself that love can be obtained through hard work, patience, & dedication; however, it should not be seeked. In time love will appear before your eyes and the most miraculous way we can ever imagine. Until then I will have to do my best and be patient. Love is a mysterious feeling that touches your heart and fills it with uncontrollable warmth that sings through out your body from head to toe. Love is something we all seek. Now I understand what I need to do to help and to work things out and to help each other overcome this obstacle and struggle of confusion, apatheticness, & insecurities. We will work things out together <3.