Dear God

Here's an old prayer I found in my cubby that I wrote to God when I needed Him:

Dear God,

You are my focus

The attention & center of my heart
The one and only true comfort
The burning passion of my soul
The King and Loving Savior

The Hope of all beginning & end
The joy and light of my world
The one and only focus of my attention
You stray me away from evil

Your guiding path of footsteps
The honor to forgive, wash away our sins
And sacrifice your only begotten son
The passion and complete filling of my empty heart

I pray to you, O'Lord, to watch over me, my family and friends
And everyone who needs love in this darken world
Shine and be the open door to a new life
The one and only savior of our lost souls
Your blessings and love is the best gift of all

Paint your name and glory above us all
For we are your creation and sheep that are made to worship thee
Save us from our shameless sins & carry us to walk your ways

Give us strength, joy, and comfort for you are our only focus
Magnify your glorious name and may it be shown in our hearts
For you are the way and the truth and the light; our guide and maker
For I am your loving child and servant

I pray God that I will be with you through my life and after life
In your Holy Kingdom ready to serve my Heavenly Father,
Our Holy Holy Holy Almighty King
The ever shinning star

I will commit my life, heart, soul, and mind to you
Heavenly Father I pray that you may grant me
Strength, courage, wisdom, love and understanding to overcome all sins
With your everlasting love please guide me

Keep me pure in all ways
Safe and sound, hand-to-hand, hear-to-heart
Be my sword and shield
You are my armor & focus of my soul

Amen.

out of our hands

Sometimes things in life happen for a reason and it is just out of our hands to take control. You see, it is human nature to take things into our own hands, especially for the people or things we CARE most about and TRY to make the best out of it. For most it is a challenge to learn how to LET THINGS BE and ACCEPT the way things are. It is important for us to UNDERSTAND that it is out of our reach, despite all our EFFORTS that FAILED and has been done. Yes, it is difficult to an EXTREME without trying to CONTROL or MANIPULATE things into our own hands when knowing that things are not going well or are slipping away from us. We just have to realize in life that we cannot control everything. Yes, it is painful to have to learn how to HOLD it in and just HOPE for the best in your heart. We can only do so much before the real truth is revealed, and behind all the painful PATIENCE and HOLDING IN that we have learned will hopefully be well RESPECTED, taken into CONSIDERATION, TAKEN TO ACTION, & make the CHANGES to SHOW that one UNDERSTANDS the other person's FEELINGS. Be strong. We can do it. Have hope in your heart. Just be who you are and be strong to not allow yourself to be influenced by the negative occurrences or changes that you face.

internal project

Making changes in life is never easy. Ultimately we make the best of our choices and decisions, whether it be positive and or negative changes in life. Of course, there are time when things get out of control & nearly impossible of our reach to FIX/ACCOMMODATE/CHANGE/UNDERSTAND ..., all we can do is just taking life as it is and learn to make the best of it. Breaking out of your comfort zone and learning how to adapt and make changes for the greater good of things can be a tremendous challenge. If one thinks it is for the best of things do not HESITATE or PROCRASTINATE to overcome this hindrance to make things successful and work. One may never know how things may turn out if one refuses to TRY & take CHANCES in this LEARNING PROCESS.

I have many things to learn in life. Things I need to learn/improve in my life are: being a STRONGER individual, being more INDEPENDENT, learn to TRUST [ WISELY ], be more CONFIDENT, & have no FEAR to make CHANGES in life and to break out of my comfort zone. These are just some things in life, non in particular order, I am setting as a goal to LEARN to APPRECIATE and make the best of my life. Once again, another new beginning and journey I am embarking to accomplish.

Yes, I know these are some things that are simple for some individuals to already have and accomplish in life, in order to survive in the real world, but I humbly come forward and admit that I am not ready yet. In my mind, yes I know I do not have these basic survival skills in life yet, but I am DETERMINE to succeed in this. This is something that I am working on. An INTERNAL project that may take me a life time, but as long as I don't GIVE UP & WORK HARD to GROW and LEARN from this experience, I know ONE DAY I will succeed.

Please guide me and help me along our way. I too need your guidance and aide :]. We both can do this together <3.

We can do this! :] *hand-in-hand* *side-by-side*

wearing multiple shoes

UNDERSTANDING is another very important human trait to acquire and develop in life. Learning to become a(n) UNDERSTANDING individual branches and teaches us many other life long lessons that we can all learn and prosper from, such as HUMBLENESS, RESPECT, GIVING CHANCES, FORGIVENESS, VALUE, and many more. Of course, there are BOUNDARIES that should not be crossed, which is when UNDERSTANDING is being taken advantage of and gone to a whole other level. Being an understanding and RESPECTFUL individual towards one another's wants and needs is one of the many ways of a successful relationship. It helps strengthen one another's TRUST and level of MATURITY in working out a COMMITTED relationship. Don't forget that COMMUNICATION is VERY IMPORTANT & the KEY to RESOLVING in a EXPRESSIVE manner. In a relationship, bear in mind, it takes TWO loving individuals to build and work together to strengthen everything, which leads into other qualities in a relationship like TRUST, SECURITY, HAPPINESS, INDIVIDUALITY, RESPECT, CONCERN, HONESTY, ... and ultimately the grandest of all LOVE. I save LOVE for another post, but I could not have done justice with this post without touching base on LOVE on the topic of learning and becoming a(n) UNDERSTANDING individual.

Being a(n) UNDERSTANDING individual to me is something that is very POWERFUL and extremely VALUABLE, & that it is something that must NEVER be taken for granted like LOVE. UNDERSTANDING can fall in many levels. It is something that is on going. I can do this. Just need to be a little stronger. Life is filled with ups & downs. I just got to work at it. Learn from it. Grow from it.

journey to discovering the meaning of life

Who am I to say and judge about the meaning of life? I'm not. I just wanted to share and write out what I perceive about life in general. The purpose of this blog is to document everything I have, had, and am learning in the process of life. This is going to be a challenge because I am not great with words; however, I decided to follow through because I realized creating this blog is a good way for me to write out my thoughts, evaluations, analysis, ... to help express (in a way, despite the fact that I am not a great writer) and release myself from my worries that I constantly am pondering about. Welcome to my journey to discovering the meaning of life. We all have our own perspectives, values, and interpretations. I humbly ask you, please refrain from thinking whatever I say is right or wrong, immature, or possibly even absurd. Life is life right?!

I decided to create this blog to embark on a new beginning and journey to help me record my understandings and learnings of my life and life in general. I have so many questions & goals and dreams to reach for. I feel lost and overwhelmed in life.

I need guidance too and someone to help me in the right direction too.

We help each other & go through this together <3. Side-by-side. Hand-in-Hand.

actions speak louder than words

Words are just not enough. Words can only last for so long. It is only a temporary foundation in making preparations for the real ACTIONS. All that 'just talking' ultimately becomes false hopes, dreams, expectations ..., moreover misleading. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. Take the stand and commit yourself in doing so. Words is just one of the many methods of taking actions. Look at MARRIAGE as an example. Saying, 'I do," is only the beginning of a fruitful relationship sharing happiness, commitments, sacrifices... with one another. Words are passive without backing it up with any actions. Showing someone how you are feeling is much more meaningful than just saying it. Actions help strengthen & reassure what one believes and stand for. It is almost like MASTERING something. Without making the EFFORT or doing anything, one is just making it HARDER to accomplish/succeed. WORK AT IT. WORK IT!

As time passes one begins to develop this mentality that it is something that is not as important as it was once before. Here is when PROCRASTINATION manifests. Everything is pushed off and nothing will be done about it unless pressure/time is enforced. Why wait to PRACTICE & LEARN now before it is TOO LATE. Why wait for it to become a HABIT or allowing it to FADE when something that was once before there. That goes with everything in LIFE.

Don't just say it. Do it. Maybe motivation is the problem? Is it not enough? What more of a motivation does one need if one already has what one wants in order to reach one's goal to success? VALUE what one has [another post/topic yet to come]. Make it WORK. WORK IT!

EFFORT. COMMITMENT. LIFE.

treasure the time you have now

Time is a very valuable thing that everyone either takes for granted, wishes to have more, or wishes to move faster, especially during the school year. For students, summer is one of the most exciting and treasured time to catch up and or excel, relax, be lazy, work, and or just enjoy life overall. Time really goes by fast when you are being productive or just having plain fun! It really kills me when I can't find anything entertaining enough to keep me productive, which makes me EVALUATE my life overall. All that precious time I am wasting has gone down the drain. I should take advantage of the time I have now to better myself before I go back to school in the fall.

I am very thankful to have a summer vacation/break and the opportunity to make the best out of it. Many people do not have the TIME to waste, relax, or enjoy. It makes me think that I should do something more meaningful in life with my summer other than just FUN and ENTERTAINMENT.

I want to search for something to do in the realm of my major/field--child and adolescent development, but I am struggling with finding the results. What are some organizations and programs I can join and participate to make a difference in the world? Preferably early age children and toddlers. I love children! They make me happy! They put a smile on my face. Every smile on a child's face shines through and lifts my spirit, which makes me feel so happy.

Can any body out there help me and provide me some suggestions and or any reliable sources that I may refer to?

one of many life's journeys

Life is a spontaneous journey whether you like it or not. Speaking of life, one thing that is always on my mind is about love and having a family of my own with my significant other one day. Love is one of the many journeys we face, but lost, confused & struggled by many everyday. I learned something new today that I once thought I have already succeeded, but I have yet to learn more, much more. Now that I can apply this learned knowledge:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy; it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres"
1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Now I have a better understanding of love in life. Love is something that is unmeasurable and wanted from many. Love is a beginning of many unforgettable memories, whether they are happy or sad. Love is patient and kind. I tell myself that love can be obtained through hard work, patience, & dedication; however, it should not be seeked. In time love will appear before your eyes and the most miraculous way we can ever imagine. Until then I will have to do my best and be patient. Love is a mysterious feeling that touches your heart and fills it with uncontrollable warmth that sings through out your body from head to toe. Love is something we all seek. Now I understand what I need to do to help and to work things out and to help each other overcome this obstacle and struggle of confusion, apatheticness, & insecurities. We will work things out together <3.